new years resolutions

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+title: "New Year's Resolutions"
+date: 2023-12-31
+---
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+<XeblogVideo path="video/2023/new-years-resolution" />
+
+Hi, it's Xe. At the time of recording, it's 11.30pm on New Year's
+Eve, and I just wanted to record something about New Year's
+resolutions and specifically what mine is for the next year.
+
+Over the last year, my New Year's resolution could be summed up in,
+like, a couple words. Get over my fear of public speaking. Get over my
+fear of being a jackass on stage and talking about things that are
+funny, engaging in ways that teach people things fundamental about
+computer science.
+
+I am fairly confident to say that I have made a huge impact on that,
+if not basically gotten over the most of it, and the rest of it is
+really just, like, smoothing out the logistics of actually doing
+things, actually recording things, all of that.
+
+I think I know what my resolution for 2023 is going to be.
+
+Historically, I've been kind of afraid of doing video for my blog, I'm
+afraid of video because of how permanent it is, how much effort it is
+to change things. With blog posts you edit a couple words here and
+there, and then bam, your message is completely different.
+
+But video has a lot more intention behind it. It has a lot more
+editing. It has a lot more steps.
+
+I want to get over my fear of looking like a jackass on video. I'm
+going to work on that.
+
+And the way I'm going to work on that is by doing it, putting
+myself out there, being vulnerable, and just seeing what happens.
+
+It's kind of actually terrifying to make this kind of resolution out
+in front of a bunch of people, you know, in this sort of intimate face
+cam style. I usually use a v-tubing rig because, well, my hair is
+super greasy right now.
+
+This is totally unfiltered. I don't even have a script right now. I
+normally script basically everything that I do in video to an inch of
+my life. I script the hand gestures that I do.
+
+I want to change that. I want to be a bit more spontaneous. I want to
+basically just create for the love of creation.
+
+My resolution for this year is to put out a video once a month.
+
+Oh, and as an aside, to stop using GitHub Gists because there's a
+whole story there that I'm probably going to make the first video of
+the new year. It's got action, danger, and accidentally getting on the
+front page of Twitter by getting on my gist links tweeted by Elon
+Musk, then finding out that the GitHub Gists product has been
+effectively abandoned by the team because nobody got promoted working
+on it. So I had to delete the gist because at the time of me being
+unemployed, having a bunch of people on Twitter looking into my
+history probably wouldn't be for the best. You can understand, right?
+
+Thanks for sticking with me. Thanks for believing. And let's see if I
+can get this video out before New Year's.